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Date:2005-04-28 13:50
Subject:journal change
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Mood: dfkjdhfbarandom

i change my journal to :::::   spotlightlove   
none of that friends only shyt just add me and ill add you back cool as that!!
=)smile
..........................<3 saRah

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Date:2005-04-28 13:22
Subject:the most boringest entry youll ever read
Security:Public
Mood: not really i hate this place

i take back what i said about that blogdrive stuff...one word...confusing...well umm so today nothing good has happen...we are going to see a movie in 7th period all through 8th also so i guess thats cool paying 2 dollars to get out of class...woo...well yea im like bored and sometimes i hate this place...cant wait to move! some people suck and most people arent cool and others are just stupid...=) my life...joking i dont hate life i just hate the people that surround me everyday...cept like brian...like you cant do anything now without someone talking shyt or like getting mad its like all physco...theres this gurl...no names!!!..and she like thinks that shes RYTE about like everything and she talks about how she wants to become a psycholgist or something...and she like acts like a 50 year old lady...and like when people are loud she goes up to them and tells them to be quiet...but when she starts to act her age and be loud no one can tell her to be quiet...and she always says how she has to be mature cause her father is like a drunk abuser or something...and its like ok and your not the only one that, that happens too...you know so its like ok get over it and dont bring it to school...and also she always makes herself seem like shes so much older and shes on line 16 like fuk your only sixteen once why try to grow up so fast...and she has to state everytime someone tells her shes pretty and its ok no she looks like michael jackson no joke...and she always has to state when people tell her she looks older and its like why would you wanna look older by the time you get to be 20 your gonna look like a 40 year old women...why be proud of that...and her boyfriends in college so she thinks she some kind of a big shyt cause his in austin in college and they dont fight and they understand each other and its like no..and like we have jitterz in town and they make those poetry nights things and she like goes and trys to make jitterz some kind of starbucks but its like all lame...and because she reads poems that arent even hers she thinks she like really great...she knows all this and how i feel about her cause i told her and she continues to act like an idiot...but we just pretend to be eachotehrs friends in order to like not make it all weird at lunch with out lunch bench people...idk i just think shes dumb for trying and trying to make herself get alot of attention...idk shes dumb that describes one person of why i hate it here...then theres another girl::no names!:: and she trys to tell me taht im a bad person and that i dont know how to be a friend and all this stuff but i dont even know her and shes like not my friend and never has been...like wtf thats dumb...and she trys to look at me all mean and its like ok umm i guess if you wanna make me the center of your world...fuk it go on...and then theres another one...no names...she use to be my best friend...but a guy came between us...and like idk shes really weird now...and i just hate everyone and i think if i still was there friends then i would like be making lots of bad grades...and not have someone as great as brian...these are things that make me believe that everything happens for a reason...i wouldnt be with brian if i didnt hurt alba and she would be my friend and i would be all slacker if i didnt chose brian...so its all ok im super happy with brian then i would be with anyone else! and now i like do much better in school and i havent skiped all year cept one time in 8th but it was boring and i dont plan on doing it again...so like idk i think im a better person without those kind of people...idk i just have alot on my mind i hate like to much but its not my fault i dont like people they help me to feel this way about them...this morning i got called a whore thats why i have that in my head...and by someone that like doesnt even have any room to call me that..becuse she doesnt know nor have any idea what shes saying to me...so i tryed not to let it bother me...but i hate when people talk and they dont even know what they are talking about...its not my fault that the person "the girl"{not the one that said whore} didnt get the love from brian like i have...and cant get the love from the person she wants now...she just shouldnt be so stupid about relationships...be serious but not stupid...she doesnt know how to have a boyfriend i think...how to treat them and such...so like how does that make me a whore...idk some people are really stupid and i cant wait to move...and i just hope that whereever i go thers not as many stupid people around...of course there are gonna be stupid people but i just hope not as many =) this world is sucky...=) i love brian.........<3 saRah ill write later cause i have to go pee...=)

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Date:2005-04-27 13:31
Subject:=) somethings are super cool!
Security:Public
Mood: random

...welll today is a good day and last night was super cool...from phashion to phat cars patriots prep for prom...well yea last night brian was really sweet...i hope it didnt just last for last night...well im in 6th period having fun...my teacher tied me to a chair cause i called her a  indian hooker...and yea im being mean cause its funn...well yea this class is cool....im like bored...well i love brian...and i hope that my relationship last for a while...some people are really stupid...i hate when some one acts like they know it all and its like ok now...and when they try to act really mature and its like come on its highschool have alittle fun...you know well anyways theres a site called blog drive thats kinda cool its like another journal site......its called blogdrive click it!!  i think today im gonna be a pakstanian person from pakistan and name myself pakastan man always in trouble man* [justjoking] and then see what happens::wraps scarf around head and tolletpaper everywhere else to keep from getting stoned[not that kind of stoned like with maryjane]:: well see you later....

...................................................<3 saRah

 

be smart!

dont start.

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Date:2005-04-26 08:17
Subject:ahdjfhajfh
Security:Public
Mood: adgfdsasfdsaf

ahdfjahjfmeandbrianbrokeup=!!!!!!! i didnt wannt this to happen but its like when i say things that i want him to say something else to he like doesnt say what he would have said before in the begining...i love him like no other...but its just that that litle i dont care act isnt gonna keep us together...he just needs to change to the way he use to be instead of this ...because i dont like it and its not working...i love him alot though...idk im like really sad well i got to go to class now its 819 and the bell rings at 820

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Date:2005-04-25 13:33
Subject:today....and ....nothing
Security:Public
Mood: sdafdkjshfjdjfjajfdjiloveeeeyo

Yo!

im bored just here in 6th period this morning i had no time to write cause i was like at my 1st priod class doing this project for 2nd...which i did super good in...and the class claped for me and no one else ha soo coool! actually i was all emnbarresed...im bored cause like everyone is talking about prom and its like umm i barely a sophmore...and i dont care for that stuff yet...so like theres no one to talk to blah*.....some people have no common since....like idk its annoying...well anyways i am bored and i think im gonna go to sleep ryte now in a little while ...i feel like really tired i think cause i llike fell asleep like at 12 at night....so yea i think today im gonna be a natziman and then see what happens.....

 

...............................<3   saRah

  • sawsome look at that awesome journal
  • go to sleep
  • get my absence slip
  • see brian
  • wear a ring
  • punch stupid people in the face
  • i am cool
  • you should comment if you wanna be cool!
  • friends only journals suck!
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Date:2005-04-25 13:27
Subject:Just alittle fun!
Security:Public
Mood: cynical?...uhmmmm

1. Who are you?:
2. Are we friends?:
3. Why are you my friend?
4. When and how did we meet?:
5. How have I affected you in any way?:
6. What do you think of me sexually?:
7. What's the fondest memory you have of me?:
8. How long do you think we will be friends?:
9. Do you <3 me?:
10. Do you have a crush on me?:
11. Would you kiss me?:
12. Would you hug me?:
13. Physically, what stands out?:
14. Emotionally, what stands out?:
15. Do you wish I was cooler?:
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
17. Am I loveable?:
18. How long have you known me?:
19. Describe me in one word:
20. What was your first impression?:
21. Do you still think that way about me now?:
22. What do you think my weakness is?:
23. Do you think I'll get married?:
24. What makes me happy?:
25. What makes me sad?:
26. What reminds you of me?:
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?:
28. How well do you know me?:
29. When's the last time you saw me?:
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
31. Do you think I could kill someone?:
32. Are you going to put this on your Livejournal and see what I say about you?

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Date:2005-04-24 20:34
Subject:home sweet home
Security:Public
Mood: glad im home now =)

man ive been like not home all weekend...i went to corpus where my sister lives it was fun...i wanna speak to brian but his not home...he went to mexico all weekend...so blah! man i really missed him =)
well yea...anyways.....its kinda like strange when people quote like really ancient people like...idk are you sure they said that....like anyone could of said it they just said it loud enough for someone to repeat and say that they said it...idk...thats weird...well anyways umm im bored i notice i never write about anything cool nor interesting i write about DUMB things that people dont care about but oh well its my journal and if they dont like it they could go...and ummm...write there own and read it or something =P blah*...just here lying in my mothers bed and looking up stuff online...=)well yea i went home early on friday at 1242 so i didnt get to write in 6th period....and i sooooo hope that i passed my biology test i think i didnt...i got my report card...and i got 2 bs and 1 c a freaken 78 stupid geometry...i could of had a b at least!!!!! grrr well and 4 a's im sooooo coooll! joking...i just am happy i passed my classes...well yea im like really bored...so im gonna go look up stuff and then yea see what happens.....5 more weeks till schools over!!!!!!!!!!!woohoooooo!!!1



...................<3 saRah


"hit me baby one more time" -Britney Spears

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Date:2005-04-22 08:07
Subject:....just another day...
Security:Public
Mood: bkafhjdhfiabdiufbbdjfbi<3brian

well im in school typing in RICH text mode...now its like 804 in the morning and im dreading 820 {when school starts}...the pants im wearing today are cool...its feels like im not wearing pants....well yea i bought them at walmart for 5 dollars...cause i thought they were cool...there were pink ones but thats alittle to outragous for me...and plus i wanted them to be...like able to match everything...so i got blue thinking that would solve my matching problem since like jeans are blue and they go with like errything...well cilla just called me to go to the cafeteria...so ill write later probably in 6th period..............<3saRah=)

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Date:2005-04-21 14:18
Subject:
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i did not know there was a rich text mode ....

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Date:2005-04-21 14:04
Subject:taks...
Security:Public
Mood: =) smile*

the history taks seemed really easy...but they always do and then you get like a 30 which is like super GAY! welll im just here listening to music from purevolume.com and you farewell nine people are a good band...you should keep it up...if your even still at it...i listen to some band from corpus named...aftermidnight2 and its like cool...well anyways
todays been ok...theres alot of people at lunch cause like more then half of the student body like skips after test like this...well yea im bored...im in 6th period just bored...we have to learn sign language for speech and its like super hard...ugh...i know like the whole alphabet though...umm yea i wanna move out of this school already...i think i might have to go to edinburg..cause i dont think we are moving anymore which sucks but yet its cool cause then ill get to see brian more often...i saw him at the gasoline station yesterday...and like it was unexpected and it gave me like butterflys like no other...his very cute...well i think the bells gonna ring cause its short period due to the testing shyt...so ill write later or something probably tomorrow...i hate when people repeat the same thing over and over and ober and its like AHAHAGDGFAHFDSHf....laters


.........................................saRah<3

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Date:2005-04-20 13:20
Subject:so..CLASS
Security:Public
Mood: another random> its all cool

so raise your hand...if you think its stupid that people make there journals friends only...its like might as well just like buy one from the dollar store with the little locks and give your grand amount of 3 friends keys...no offense to the people i have on my friends list that have friends only journal...i just think its pointless...oh well....anywho im in school 6th period...thats like the only place i write...GAY well i think im going to corpus this weekend the WHOLE weekend NOOOOO!!!!i wanna be with brian but i htink that brians going to mexico so its all COOLLLl...we got cable on demand yesterday..its all coo lol not really...we hadnt had cable like in 1216511502150.0.5145.1651.231511.1.43451..2435154. centuries...so im just so excited! ha not really well like umm i think i just write to myself cause like i put place a comment if you read this and like i have like a total ammount of 0,000,000.00.00.000000. comments from people that arent ME...blah* im such a loser... oh well ill just keep all my lovely interesting like to myself...HAAA. booofjdhafidnsjgbfdgbfdbvdbfidbfbh im like really bored...i like cheetos caliente................................................................<3saRah

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Date:2005-04-19 13:11
Subject:...qtip
Security:Public
Mood: random choice

maybe high school is suppose to be like this....sucky and friendless or maybe im just making it like that for myself...sometimes i wish i had a TRUE best friend the kind you have in 2nd grade that wouldnt steal your boyfriend or get mad at you if you stoled theirs...someone who would laugh at you cause you in the corner for something they did...but it was alright...the world keeps changing and it seems that the more it changes the less friends you have like if we are getting to close to the sun and all the clear people are evaporating so that in the end you will know who is real and who is clear...and like in every other case...all the clear people are the ones you wanted to be real...idk i have alot on my mind.....

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Date:2005-04-18 13:37
Subject:...so
Security:Public
Mood: it was a random choice<<

so....i decided that i was gonna be a dragonfly for 11542.54564.5 days and then see what happens...
im in sixth period today has gonna pretty well for me for the most part...were testing in the gym tomorrow and on wednesday its just gonna be a regular day thats weird...? well i think were getting cable finally after like .65.215.325.03451023 months...i havent done anything all day...1st=movie 2nd=movie 3rd=the principal took us all to the gym to talk 4=nothing 5th=signlanguagemovie 6=whatim doing ryte now=nothing
so yea...i want this taks stuff to be done with....=Pblah*** well...im bored i think im gonna call davina and see why she didnt come to school today...fAkEy---joke......weeeeeelllllllllbye=)


saRah<3

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Date:2005-04-18 08:12
Subject:afternoon in utopia...
Security:Public
Mood: 123456789

so yea yesterday was kinda weird...i argued with brian...over something stupid yet important...we always go through this =P...so i decided to go to the park...and talk...which didnt happen...the talk part...well yea but i like it its really nice to just be with him...in his arms and stuff...i guess its easier to fight when we dont see eachother...cause i tryed to be mad at him...in person...but i just couldn't...his so *cute* i love him...=)well i guess its the past...
im in class...in the morning and the bell rang...well umm g2g to class bye....i<3brian
comment if you read this it makes me feel good....=)

saRah<3

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Date:2005-04-16 11:29
Subject:the world is black.
Security:Public
Mood: dirty bear...jk

...todays boring my brother ran out of money so now he wants back in my parents house...dumb...well yea im just here listening to a cd brian made me...and talking to him online...this weekend i can tell is gonna suck so bad...maybe ill go to the movies with brian or something fun like the park or whatnot...so yea im reall like bored...brians my only excitment...ha im such a sucky person...oh well i have homework to do...caus ei dont wanna worry about it next week cause of taks and shit...man i dreaded this week for like ever...but it just means closer to the summer...and i get to go swimming...wooo well umm ill write later when something exciting happens....

saRah<3
i decided to put the song lyrics to the song im listening to ....in every update

"The World Is Black"

Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day and
No one really knows why this is happening
But it's happening
And everywhere you go it's just a different place
You get the same dark feeling
See the same sad faces
No one really cares that this is happening
We come into this world
And we all are the same
In that moment there's no one to blame
But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen
Living in this place it's always been this way
There's no one doing nothing so there's nothing changed
And I can't live when this world just keeps dying
It's dying
People always tell me this is part of the plan
That God's got everybody in His hands
But I can only pray that God is listening
Is He listening?
We're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see
But the world is black
And hearts are cold
And there's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
It won't be the same
Forever changed
By the things we've seen, seen, seen
We come into this world
And we all are the same
And in that moment there's no one to blame
But we're living in this world
Growing colder everyday
Nothing can stay perfect now I see
The world is black
And hearts are cold
There's no hope
That's what we're told
And we can't go back
(We can't go back)
It won't be the same
(It won't be the same)
Forever changed
(What will ever change)
By the things we've seen, seen, seen
Turn on channel seven at a quarter to eight
You see the same damn thing it's just a different day
And no one really knows why this is happening

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Date:2005-04-09 17:25
Subject:tomorrow...again
Security:Public
Mood: crazy

well im just here with nothing to do...brian went to the mall with his mother and sister and think brother and i was suppose to take off to corpus but nah we decided i guess not too...so i told my mom that tonight if i could go with brian somewhere like to get smoothies at like that panini place that like taste super good...well yea im just here listening to music...and bored i feel like typing about something interest cept theres nothing interesting in my life at the moment...like i hate it when people talk about you and they like dont know anything about you...this stupid girl at school trys to go around and say things about me but she doesnt even know me..she even tells melike i dont know you but your a bad person..its like ok wtf you dont know me...and maybe im a bad person to you cause i dont like you from the way she acts like all loud and shyt and then like yea its stupid...i just hate when people talk and they dont even know what they are talking about and its ok so ive probably done that before ryte but like i dont come up with stupid crap like she is its just so like pathetic...i just try not to let things like that bother me..cause then like if i did i probabbly go insane from the crazy mess this world it...but at least i dont have to go through it by myself...i love you brian
saRah<3







DIFFUSER

"I Wonder"

and i wonder if you ever think about me anymore
and i wonder if you ever think about me when your bored
and i wonder if you ever think about me when you're hangin' in New York

and i wonder if you still think Bono writes his songs for you
and i wonder if the reasons why you left me were untrue
and i wonder if you give him (better blow jobs / more excuses) than the ones i got from you

because...
girl you mean
so much to me
i wish that we..
could start it over, start it over
i don't need your sympathy or apologies
still i'm staring in my coffee cup at six A.M.
and i cannot give.. up

and i wonder if you're happy or just glad to see me scarred
took my drunken self-confession sober up your bleeding heart
I am bending over backwards to get close to you but still i feel so far

because...
girl you mean
so much to me
i wish that we..
could start it over, start it over
i don't need your sympathy or apologies
still i'm staring in my coffe cup at six am
and i cannot give.. up

girl you mean
so much to me
i wish that we could start it over
i dont need your sympathy or apologies
....anymore

girl you mean
so much to me
i wish that we..
could start it over, start it over
i don't need your sympathy or apologies
i just want you here with me

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Date:2005-04-07 13:55
Subject:
Security:Public
Mood: ha i lied

this ones cool !!!! wooohoooo=) well bells gonna ring got to go bells gonna ring WOOOO closer to the end of the day =)
veronikah you left a little giraffe at my house and i like it and im stealing it...=) smile*

saRah<3

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Date:2005-04-07 13:54
Subject:i dontq
Security:Public

i dont even like green..but change is good (note: i changed my journal to green but i didnt like it so i change it to this and it looks very mature like ha.)

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Date:2005-04-07 13:37
Subject:the rest of the poem i forgot
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Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. You and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
- Captain Corelli's Mandolin

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Date:2005-04-07 13:25
Subject:love.
Security:Public
Mood: blah

i havent updated in like forever...today was good first period i made a 100 on my history test and 2nd i had this tone assinemtn that was cool and in 3rd it was a sub and i did my work with cilla and kaydee and ryan and in 4th it was lunch wow its weird how one thing can ruin your whole day...blah freshmen in my school are so stupid they think of themselves as all cool...and its like ummm...NOOO...freaks mike threw ketchup at like the air and it randomly hit like the only person in this school wearing WHITE pants stupid guy...it was so funny but then they made us go to the office it was cool like a part of the office ive never been too... it was all cool...but then in speech on my main speech i got a 76 cause cilla got mad cause she got called to the office with me and like the lady got mad at her shoes and she said there for speech and she didnt care LOSER! well anyways yea im like super bored...just here in 6th period i have a sub for 7th and for 8th blah that class always sucks no matter what...=/...after school im going to some uil meet for junior high with my mom so im not gonna get to see brian =( my lovely boyfriend=) well anyways...yea joelens playing with my hair so buhbye i like that =)

saRah<3

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